Time to blog about nothing yay!!!

Nothing really exciting has been going on with me. All the drama in my life has somewhat passed and things are calm for now or are they ? I still find myself stressed out to the point where I will soon have a complete breakdown and check my crazy self into a mental hospital..lol its not that serious people calm down.

My nose has been twitching lately its pretty funny. I keep reminding my self to ask DrV why its doing that but then I forget (story of my life) and get caught up in the daily drama that is medical billing.

And since were on the subject can I just say it freakin sucks !! Today is Monday I have been trying to get out of this class since last week and what I mean by trying I mean drop out of it completely.

Stupid school. So this afternoon I will hopefully be out of there. There trying there hardest to keep me all because they want my money. Greedy people.

I'm severely stressed right now. I find myself questioning everything that's in my life at the moment. Some times I stress myself out over stupid lil things that I should not be stressing over but I can't help it.

I just hate being stuck in a rut and right now im so stuck.. stuck in what? That's unimportant to my blogger readers at the moment.. Then what's the point of blogging about if IM not gonna spill it?

Oh fine here it goes ( was that 3 questions ? Damn!! ) Recently I figured out what I am going to do with myself. I had no idea that it was going to be such a big thing and I caught myself questioning if I really want to go through it all. And I do. But now I have to wait till summer classes start and I hate waiting.

Then there is the fact that I had a job one that sucked ass and now I don't all because I couldn't stand the way this weirdo flipped his lid on me so is that really a stress? Yes it is bills need to be pawed.

Then there's this person in my life who attitude I can not stand who tells me that I am selfish and not thinkin about others which in a way is true but this is what I have to say about all that.

Fuck that my whole life I have been always catering to others needs.. Not to sound like I'm the shit or anything cause that's far from what I'm tying to get across. But I know I have potential and I'm not going to let anyone knock me down regardless of who they are. Like I said I have always tried to make others happy now its my turn to do what I need to do.

This person is very good at making me feel bad sometimes he is the poison to my brain and I feel bad that I see it this way. But that's what it is he has a way of turning things and people against me I know the real him and when others see him he puts on the I am an angel front

stresses me out to the fullest and is really no help..Let me take that back he is a help but there's a lot of issues there so I'll just stop that there. Anyways he's a true abuser and I mean mentally.

But I know who I am and his lil games do not work on me anymore.

Then there's my Texas stress..lol well not really that's just pure bliss.. But one thing Now more than ever since I'm not workin he knows I cant go out there but there's always that when are you coming to see me and gives me crap and a little bit of attitude.. Or the fact that we cant be together when we both really need a hug or love or just to get laid damnit!! But I love him

okay that is all for now