The world is full of pricks and I had to fuckin find the biggest one

time to bloc about a son of a bitch that I wish I never fuckin met. The baby's daddy may he rot in hell for the rest of his sorry worthless life. I must have been such a bad person in my past life to get stuck with some of the shit I have to deal with now. I mean seriously is the fuckin drama ever gonna end. Will shit ever be easy for me ? I am at my breaking point I'm ready to fuckin explode. If killing myself were an option I would fuckin take it. Put truthfully its not worth it and fuckin retared you cant ran away for u or your problems u need to face them head on.

so this bitch tells me that I am selfish. Maybe I am , but like I said before I have always looked out for others and been walked on so now the hell with everyone fuck them all. I am tired of it. Tired of this asshole. If I could kill him and get away with it I would. I have so much hate for this person its unbelievable. I try to keep it cool with him but his comments piss me off so I verbally abuse him only because he does it to me. My kids are the ones who suffer and I hate to see that. My son is sick and because I am a selfish Lila bitch I need to learn my lesson. Which means.... Okay here's the story.

so I am never at home I leave in the morning got to work come home for about 40 mins for lunch go back to work. Leave there and then go put in like 2 hours @ job number 2 then got to school from 6 - 10 pm then go home. The only real free time I have is weekends. And I do this all is because I want better for my family . Its a sacrifice that only I am willing to make. Now according to Mr fuckin wonderful I take on too much true I do but I do it all know cause in the future it will pay off I'm young why wait till later. Yes he is here to help me, thank god he could of been an ass like most men are and walk out and never look back. But because I am doing all this he says I keep him for some of the things he wants to do. Now here's what I ask over and over . What is it you want to do ? Sit on your ass and watch judge Judy ? Or roll form your left side to your right ? Seriously..

He claims I have changed since I started taking care of things...Meaning going to school... And all that crap.. Yes I'm not going to lie over the past 3 years I have changes I'm not even the same person I used to be but its for the better. And because I am doing what I got to do to become something and provide a better life for my kids he sees that as a threat. He has low self esteem I feel bad. There's more to this story he's sick diagnosed with something very rare here in the US neurosistersocosis in English OMG I'll blog about it all in next entry too freakin long to get into detail. But ever since he got sick about maybe 5 years ago he's been very depressed and I don't give a fuck what kind of a mood you are in don't bring me down with you. geez I'm getting tired of complaining I feel like if I get more pissed than what I am I'm going to do something I am going to regret or wind up in the hospital...Why ? Because of my nose twitchin breakdown !!!!