Healing can be hard

Tonight's post is going to be all about my grandmother which well eventually turn into a post about my mother that I will get into detail about but not so much, but enough to vent and get out of my system.

My grandmother has been on my mind a lot lately. In everything that is going on in my life I ask myself one question. Would she approve of the direction I am going in? My grandmother has been dead for 5 years and even though it has been a while I still miss her.

I remember when I was younger my mom would tell me ur going to gran's house for the weekend. Oh my god how I hated hearing those words. I would beg my mom not to send me. My granny used to live in a senior citizen's home in Anaheim Ca like 7 mins from the happiest place on earth also known as Disneyland. She lived on the 10th floor and from her balcony u could see Disneyland. and im extremely lazy and dont want to finish this post cause i started it day before yesterday and im out of that mood so i'll end it now