An update

life has been nothing but drama but when it comes to me that is no surprise. I have been really busy and a lot has been going on , both good and bad. So I am just going to lay iy all out.




Halloween was a lot more fun this year than it ever was. My son is four now so he can do the whole go to the door with his sister thing alone. We had a blast we only when out of a little while. My beautiful daughter was a princess and my weird son was a power ranger. They both looked so cute. My son kept going to the houses and singing "trick or treat smell my feet I'll pull down ur underwear"
We had a really good time. Plus my steelers won !!! it was something that I seriously needed because lately I have been depressed.

mother fuckin fish stick !!

I got a fish now !! His name is mother fuckin fish stick...LOL some one gave me the idea after we were talking about mother fuckin grape soda. Which now I regret the name because it only makes me think of something I am trying to forget. But he's a cool fish, he's a betta and he's a really cute blue color... And I have my turtle still lil fiddy, she's getting really big.

I took up drawing. I needed something to let out my anger,fears and frustrations and since I am not into putting my thoughts out on paper drawing seemed like a good idea. Plus I love the fact that people look at my drawings and they have no idea what they mean. They have their own idea and I enjoy the fact that they analyze them. I'm surprised. I am not that bad I mean its only been a few days since I started and every night I come home sit in a room all alone and just draw. I think with practice I can really do something good. Right now I am using oil pastels but I am all about blending so I'm going back to the art store to see what I can find.

I found an old picture of myself the other night. Maybe about 5 or 6 years ago. I remember how things were back then and how carefree I used to be . I am not even that person anymore. I miss the old allie. Not the hood rat allie... Just the old me. I am going to try my hardest to find her again. But its hard when you are so unhappy with the present. Work , home life , love life lately it all just seems to be going down all at once and its hard to handle. But I'm a strong person and can make it through.