My last Cali post

Awwwww. Okay so I'm really emotional about leaving my home town. For years it has been all I have ever known but at the same time I'm very excited!!




Sofia is one of my best friends , well really my only. She is the only one that I have not had a falling out with we have been there for each other when ever we needed each other. I have been trying to spend as much time as I could with her. So today she calls me and tells me she's going to drop off a bag that I left in her car. So she pulls up to my house and I get my bag and she tells me is this it am I never going to see u again ? Aww we both wanted to cry and I told her no I will go by ur house in the morning and say goodbye. Dude !! How am I going to handle it I'm ready to cry right now !!!


and tomorrow I am going to do one of my most favorite things ever. I'm going to the beach and sit by the water and just think. I have been saying that I am going to do this all week but I haven't found the time but that is the first thing on my to do list.




Then there is saying goodbye to Lori. Lori is my ex boss but really my second mother. She has taught me so much and opened my eyes up to a whole different world. I wouldn't even be able to explain it to anyone who asks. They would think I was crazy if I went into detail. But she helped me understand things about life and myself.


and I am going to finish the night off by spending time with my family. I mean it's not like there never going to hear from me again, but its just I'm going to a strange land to be with in there eyes a stranger. LOL I find that so funny. But as I have said to them and my Dad I am a very strong person and I can handle anything that comes my way and they shouldn't worry.

Am I really freaking out

I don't know a part of me is and a part of me is not. What the hell am I talking about my move from L.A. to Austin. I am looking forward to it. And its funny cause just a few days ago I was really bummed and complaining to be bummed.

but in a way I am sad but not for me or my kids but for the father of my kids. He is used to seeing them everyday and soon very soon all that is going to change. I feel for him I try to think what it would be like if I was in his shoes. I know I would die of sadness. Short post cause IM going home I am at work right now but I'll get into this one later.


( now we all know my laters never happen so don't think I'm going to come back to this topic and if I do it will be after my move)